Good Girls

In my dreams I was a cool, daring girl who said no to the teacher and went on wild and exciting adventures.  I vowed to myself that when I grew up, when I could escape, I would be that girl.

I wanted to disobey the rules but I just couldn’t.  I don’t even know why?  Was I worried that all of a sudden someone would punish me?  Yes, I guess I was.  People who follow rules are somehow praised by parents and teachers and all the people who influence our early life.  All I wanted was for people to praise me and tell me that I was a good girl.  Good Girl, Nice Girl.  Follow all the rules and use perfect punctuation.

And so I grew into a Nice Girl.  I am sort of interesting and quirky, but never enough to tip the boat.  I guess I am afraid I might fall out into that big mass of water…the unknown.  The unwritten.  I want to be out there, swimming in the ocean, but every time I try, I end up clinging to the boat, afraid that once I jump in, I won’t be able to swim.

Maybe the water will be so beautiful, I may never need the boat again……Maybe punctuation doesn’t matter as much.  As I thought. It did.

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7 thoughts on “Good Girls

  1. Thanks Trisha! I am really trying to give writing a real go! Yikes! Thanks for being my very first comment. Miss you! Hugs to you and your family! xx

  2. I think i can relate to this… the desire to be the ‘good one’ has always driven me even till date… unfortunately, in the process, i have lost too many dreams, possibilities and ambitions… so now i am trying to figure out a mid way somewhere… not leaving the boat just yet, but swimming along it in the unknown… all the best on your quest..

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